After My Boudoir Session, I Actually Felt Very Sick
S’S ANONYMOUS BOUDOIR SESSION
ZEALOUS STILLS BOUDOIR BEND, OREGON
Lets see...I’m about to turn 30, a mom of two of the best kids ever, wife, and a licensed massage therapist for 9 years now.
I’m usually a people pleaser, it’s hard for me to say no to people.
I’M A CALM, QUIET PERSON JUST TRYING TO GET THROUGH THE DAY.
THERE WERE MANY REASONS I DID THIS BOUDOIR SHOOT. I THINK THE ONE THAT STANDS OUT THE MOST IS THAT I NEEDED TO DO SOMETHING FOR MYSELF, TO SEE MYSELF IN A DIFFERENT LIGHT.
The past 7-8 years has been routine...having kids, getting married, buying a house...yeah thats what life is all about, but it hit me without me even realizing.
I WENT THROUGH ALL THE MOTIONS, NOT ENJOYING ANY OF IT.
So after all these years of raising little kiddos, housework, being a wife, and having my own part time job....mannnn, I just needed to do something for me.
REBOOT AND GET BACK TO ME.
Also, one of my reasons for doing this was turning 30 next month. I feel like right when I was finding myself 9 years ago, life happened and my twenties were spent in a routine daze. I want to see myself as 30 and beautiful and HAPPY.
Before my boudoir session I was Excited, nervous, didn’t know what to expect but wasn’t expecting anything.
I REALLY JUST WANTED TO LISTEN TO MOLLY, FOCUS AND JUST BELIEVE, BELIEVE THERE WAS A REASON I FOUND MOLLY, SOUGHT THIS OUT, AND FUCKING SHOWED UP AT HER DOOR THAT DAY.
I wanted (probably needed) to see myself differently. I wanted to see myself in the moment
At first, I was nervous... I probably talked Claire’s ear off because I was so nervous. Then standing in the dressing room, staring in the mirror thinking “am i really going to walk upstairs like this”.....and I did! And Molly (or Claire) never once made me feel uncomfortable. It was truly an amazing experience.
The whole experience.
Molly was right there, encouraging, guiding, I mean damn. At one point, she showed me one of the pictures she took and I thought she was going to say “do it more like this”, but it was me in the picture...it was ME!
I will remember that day forever.
I WASN’T SURE WHAT TO EXPECT SO I JUST WANTED TO ‘GO WITH THE FLOW’ WHICH IS PART OF MY PERSONALITY ANYWAYS. BUT WHAT WAS UNEXPECTED WAS HOW EASILY SHE TRANSITIONED...I LEFT THINKING HOLY SHIT SHE JUST GOT ME NAKED AND I DIDN’T EVEN REALIZE. THATS HOW COMFORTABLE I WAS!!
OKAY SO RIGHT AFTER THE SESSION, I ACTUALLY FELT VERY SICK.
BUT AS WEIRD AS THIS MAY SOUND...I TRULY BELIEVE SOMETHING CAME OUT OF ME THAT DAY.
ALL THE NEGATIVITY THAT MY OWN MIND HAD THOUGHT UP OR THE NEGATIVITY THAT OTHERS HAVE PUT INTO MY HEAD, IT ALL LEFT. I OWN MY FEELINGS AND HAPPINESS. NO ONE ELSE CAN CONTROL THAT. AND NO MATTER HOW MANY TIMES I’VE HEARD THOSE NEGATIVE COMMENTS AND EVEN FOR FUTURE NEGATIVE COMMENTS, RISE ABOVE BECAUSE YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL, YOU ARE STRONG, AND YOU CAN DO THIS!
I’VE BEEN ON AN UPWARD CLIMB FOR MONTHS BUT THIS BOUDOIR SESSION DEFINITELY PULLED ME OUT OF SOME DARKNESS I WAS IN.
I’m loving the way I feel about myself and my life and it will continue. Yes, there will be stressful times, but the strength and beauty will be there.
Do it!!!! Yeah, you might be scared and nervous. But go for it! Do it! Especially if you need a boost. I needed it. And I cannot thank Molly enough. She captured me in ways I neverrrrrr thought was there. Thank you too, Claire, you were amazing too.
The two of you made this experience life-changing for me...and there is nothing else I can say except
THANK YOU.
I look at the app daily right now. It gives me strength and confidence and it’s a feeling I’m so happy to be feeling. I can’t explain it.
I’m so excited to see the final album. Thank you thank you thank you!