I'm More a Shot of Whiskey Than a Cup of Tea - Boudoir Empowerment Story
I'M LOUD, MOUTHY, SASSY, AND STRONG-HEADED, BUT I'M ALSO VERY PASSIONATE, LOVING, AND CARING. I'M MORE OF SOMEONE'S SHOT OF WHISKEY THAN CUP OF TEA, SO I'M USED TO NOT BEING SOMEONE EVERYONE KNOWS HOW TO GET ALONG WITH. I WORK MY ASS OFF ON NIGHT SHIFT AND THE END GOAL IS TO BECOME A FLIGHT NURSE. NO KIDS, NO HUSBAND, NO BOYFRIEND EVEN. IT'S JUST MY DOGGO AND I, AND THAT'S WORKING OKAY FOR ME SO FAR.
I'm 29, working full time in Intensive Care as a patient care tech (soon to be transferring to ER!), as well as a part-time firefighter/EMT.
Taking care of people has become my life.
Eventually I'd like to settle down, but the struggle to meet a man who can handle a woman of my caliber is very real.
I decided to book this session because I was tired of being mean to myself. My body has changed in ways that I don't love, partly due to working night shift and partly due to having difficulty maintaining good habits now that my schedule is so off-kilter. I have been so critical of who I am and what I've turned into in the last year and a half, but really I don't want to be anymore.
I wanted to show myself that curvy (even in less preferred places), intelligent, unfiltered women are some of the sexiest beings. I wanted to believe it, because I have nothing to be ashamed of.
THIS WAS MY WAY OF DOCUMENTING STEPPING OUT OF MY COMFORT ZONE AND CELEBRATING MY BEGINNING TO SELF-LOVE.
LEADING UP TO MY SESSION I FELT NERVOUS, AS I'M SURE MANY DO. THESE EMOTIONS WERE FUELED BY THE FACT THAT I WOULD BE COMPLETELY VULNERABLE AND I'M NOT TYPICALLY ONE TO LET WALLS DOWN. HOWEVER DURING THE SESSION, IT BECAME VERY EASY TO WARM UP TO THE CAMERA.
There were so many unexpected emotions during my session . . .
LIBERATION, SEXINESS, AND COMFORT.
I have never had my nude body exposed to a professional lens in the ways it was. It was done in such a tasteful manner that I was blown away by how unwound I had become during the shoot. I thought for sure I'd be more shy, but really it became easy to make jokes and have fun with it the whole time. I was grateful.
TO ANYONE CONSIDERING A BOUDOIR SESSION WITH MOLLY . . . GIRL, DO IT.
It always sounds daunting at first, putting yourself in a position of vulnerability and nudity. I'm telling you though: every woman should do it once in her life. Not for her husband, not for her boyfriend, not for her girlfriend or wife, but for herself. At the end of the day, you are all you have. Embrace the beauty that was given to you. Embrace the life that you have created for yourself.
Bare your soul to a camera to remind yourself that you're worth every breath of air you take in.
Fall in love with you again.
When we were chatting at my shoot, Molly said,
"You're harsh on your body because you see yourself from two angles: your body straight on in the mirror, and straight down to your toes. You don't get to see the many angles that I can see through a camera that embody sexiness. You just don't get to see it. That's what I love about these shoots."
She's right. She knows exactly what she's doing. Trust her, let her guide you. She has an eye for the masterpiece.
I HAVE ALWAYS BEEN TOLD THAT I'M TOO MUCH.
Be it romantically, in terms of personality, or in my career. I told myself that 2020 would be the year that I embrace the "too much," that I would remind myself why I'm never too much. I did this shoot to take a step towards loving myself, and remembering that too much is only an opinion.
I'm not too much. I'm more than enough. I'm so grateful I got a chance to do this.