I Was Mostly Anxious
Where to begin? I’m 24, a city girl playing it country for a while. Terribly shy and insecure about lots of stuff, stuff that most people won’t care about. I am recently engaged to the type of man every girl wishes they could have. I am also a soon to be mom! July my little girl will make her debut!
I HAD MY VERY FIRST SESSION WITH MOLLY ALMOST A YEAR AGO.
I was shy and conservative. To be completely honest, I wanted to do the shoot to get the photos back to give to my then boyfriend in hopes it would push him to want to purpose. Little did I know, the day after my shoot he popped the question! The boudoir session the second time around was strictly for me. I booked several months in advance and a month after booking I found out I was pregnant.
THE SHOOT INSTANTLY MEANT IT WAS TIME TO DO SOMETHING JUST FOR ME.
I wanted to have something to look at and say “even at 25 weeks pregnant, weird nipples that weren’t inverted anymore because of hormones, extra stretch marks on my belly and feet that were swelling out of my shoes, I still could make myself feel beautiful”
Leading up to my session I was TERRIFIED. Fueling that was the fact that I was 25 weeks pregnant with a very unnoticeable bump. I emailed molly a few days before my session telling her how nervous I was for this session. I knew I wanted to lose some extra clothes this time so I could feel more comfortable in my own skin and Molly made me feel amazing and the clothes just fell off!
After, I felt amazing. Just like my first session.
I FELT LIKE THE MOST IMPORTANT PERSON IN THE WORLD FOR THE SHORT AMOUNT OF TIME I SPENT AT THE STUDIO. MOLLY HAS THIS WAY OF MAKING YOU FEEL EMPOWERED IN FRONT OF THE CAMERA.
A specific moment that stands out? No. Not this time. The entire session is almost a blur. Everything went so quick. The only thing I remember was sitting on the couch wearing nothing but a sheet waiting for Molly to decide what the next pose was going to be until she turned around and said
“the red sheet looks amazing on you, I can’t wait til you see these photos”
I was feeling a million emotions but I think I was mostly anxious. I wanted to see them all, I couldn’t stop fidgeting, I couldn’t bring myself to just relax and enjoy myself until it was the end of my session with just minutes left of my last outfit and I realized the worst thing that could happen was I would hate all the pictures and I would have to just book another. Little did I know, I loved so many of the photos!
Right after I felt like a goddess. I went home to my fiancé who was asleep on the couch when I got home. I woke him up and the first thing out of his mouth was “wow” I smiled and said what? He said “why don’t you curl your hair like that more often?” I knew it was his way of saying you look amazing. I couldn’t help but hold a cheesy smile.
The first time had an incredible impact on me, not nearly as much as the second time. The second time I think I finally understand what doing something for yourself means. I got naked, enjoyed some orange juice and had an amazing time feeling myself for a camera.