I'm Objectively A Total Smoke Show

IM A 29 YEAR OLD HAIR STYLIST WITH A PASSION FOR TRUE CRIME, AND SOMETIMES, DEBILITATING BODY IMAGE ISSUES.

I DECIDED TO GET A BOUDOIR SHOOT BECAUSE IN THE LAST 7 YEARS, I DECIDED THAT LIVING AT THE GYM AND COUNTING EVERY LAST CARBOHYDRATE WAS NO WAY TO LIVE. AS A RESULT I HAVE AN ENTIRELY DIFFERENT BODY THAT IM NOT 100% SURE HOW TO FEEL SEXY IN.

....But I did use my wedding as a catalyst.

I was fairly nervous leading up to my shoot. I always freeze up in front of a camera and absolutely HATE seeing photos of myself.

MY OWN INSECURITIES FUELED MY NERVES.

I was extremely surprised about how calm I felt during my session. The poses were slow moving and Molly made me feel comfortable, coached me through poses, and laughed along with me. It was like going to your bffs yoga class.

I WAS SHOCKED WHEN WE WENT THROUGH THE WARDROBE. I THOUGHT FOR SURE I WAS GOING TO GO FULL "BRIDAL" BUT AT THE END OF THE DAY I CAN DENY THAT IM 100% BLACK LACE.

I FEEL LIKE I CROSSED SOMETHING OFF OF MY BUCKET LIST. MORE IMPORTANTLY, HOWEVER, I LEARNED THAT IM OBJECTIVELY A TOTAL SMOKE SHOW... EVEN THOUGH I DON'T ALWAYS FEEL LIKE IT.

IF YOU'RE ON THE FENCE: DO IT. YOU WON'T REGRET IT. I WOULD DO IT AGAIN IN A HEARTBEAT. EVEN IF JUST FOR THE EXPERIENCE.

P. S. Molly is gifted. It’s one thing to take beautiful photographs (which she totally does) but it’s another to be so uplifting, comforting, and professional in a potentially uncomfortable situation. I felt that Molly cared for me and really wanted me to shine.