I Have Been Through Some Shit - Boudoir Client Story
I’M A 33-YEAR-OLD SINGLE MOM OF THE CUTEST LITTLE 8 YR OLD BOY, KAMERON! I LIVE IN GOOD OLD PLATTEVILLE, WISCONSIN AND I WORK IN A GLORIOUS CHEESE FACTORY IN THE NEXT TOWN OVER FROM WHERE I LIVE! I HAVE A FEW CLOSE FRIENDS, WHO ARE MY SOUL SISTERS!
THIS PAST YEAR I HAVE BEEN STRUGGLING A LOT MORE THAN USUAL WITH FINDING MYSELF AND LOVING ME.
As we all have been through our own shit and battles with life, I too have been through some shit. I was molested as a child, and then about ten years ago I was raped by my boyfriend at the time. I did press charges and go through everything;
THE TRIAL, THE LAWYERS, THE HOSPITAL RAPE KIT, THE RESTRAINING ORDER, COUNSELING . . . AND HE STILL GOT TO WALK AWAY FROM IT SCOTT FREE.
We do live in the same town, and I see him every once in a while.
I’VE HAD TIME TO HEAL BUT IT NEVER DOES TRULY GO AWAY. I’VE STRUGGLED WITH HOW TO LOVE MYSELF, HOW TO LOVE OTHERS, HOW TO TRUST, AND JUST HOW TO THINK ALL AROUND! BUT AS OF NOW THIS DAY, I STAND HERE AS THE BAD ASS BITCH AND I FEEL I AM ON THE RIGHT PATH NOW AND MY JOURNEY HAS STARTED. I AM SOOOOO FREAKING EXCITED ABOUT THIS.
I’VE ALWAYS WANTED TO DO ONE (A BOUDOIR SESSION), WHO HASN’T?
BUT ALSO WITH MY STRUGGLE OF FINDING AND LOVING MYSELF…
I wanted to see what others saw, instead of my own point of view!
I’ve struggled my whole life with insecurities and doubts, self worth, you name it! I just wanted to do something for me!!!
SO WHAT WAS I DOCUMENTING?
That I’m a bad ass bitch who can over come anything and do anything that she wants! No matter what.
I was extremely nervous and unsure of what was gonna happen or turn out. Being open and vulnerable is something I struggle with. I remember sitting in my car, waiting because I had shown up 5 mins early, and we all know Molly says BE ON TIME - not early lol! So I didn’t want to break the rules right away!
DURING THE SESSION I FELT AMAZINGLY CONFIDENT!
Molly made me feel comfortable, and she made it easy!
I FEEL LIKE WHEN WE STARTED TALKING WE JUST CLICKED, ALMOST LIKE WE HAVE KNOWN EACH OTHER FOR YEARS! WE HAD GREAT CONVERSATION WHILE I WAS GETTING MY HAIR AND MAKEUP DONE, AND OF COURSE MIMOSAS! WE FOUND OUT WE ARE BIRTHDAY TWINS, WHICH IS SUPER EXCITING! TRYING ON OUTFITS WAS SO MUCH FUN. WE BOTH KNEW WHICH ONE I WAS GOING TO WEAR BUT WE STILL TRIED ON EVERYTHING ELSE!
I FELT FIERCE AND BEAUTIFUL AND SO EMPOWERED!
THERE WAS ONE MOMENT THAT STUCK OUT THE MOST…
When we first started, my first picture she took! It was of me sitting Indian style staring out the doors, I remember thinking to myself, this is a start of a new Monica! Calm, cool, and content! I’m a bad ass bitch and I can do anything! This was the start of my journey! And it is my favorite picture she took of me!
Every time I see my pictures, I remember that day and how I felt and it all comes back to me!
IF ANYONE WAS CONTEMPLATING DOING A SESSION, I’D TELL THEM HELL YES!
I honestly can’t put in words how I felt. I remember when I left her studio, I was smiling ear to ear, and I felt the best I’ve felt in a long time! I felt sexy, confident, and no weirdness getting naked in all sorts of weird positions in front of a camera! Molly made it easy!
