I've struggled for my whole life with self confidence.

I'm finally at a place in my life where I can recognize my strengths and successes and wanted to capture that on film. I treasure the art of photography because it can capture things within us we could never see in the mirror.

I wanted to celebrate loving myself for exactly who I am.

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There was no longer any fear there of just taking up the space and being myself but I felt so present and that felt sexy to me.

There is one picture where I'm sitting by the river and looking up, I was just feeling the moment (…) This is one of my favorites because she was able to capture this look in my eyes. I saw that photo and was overwhelmed because it's the first picture of myself that I've ever looked at and thought that's me. I saw my own soul in my eyes and it's the first time I felt beautiful.

I was put on diets at an early age, was a binge eater in college, and then swung wildly in the other direction and became very restrictive in my 20s and 30s. I started to gain weight in my 40s and have been trying to make peace with this changing body. I also deal with chronic pain and have gone through multiple major surgeries in the last few years.

This Adventure Boudoir Session was a way for me to celebrate and honor what my body has gone through and thank it for how it is still carrying me through this crazy life.

I had a lot of internal discourse and barriers to work through. What if it was uncomfortable? What if people at my work saw the photos? What if my family did? What if my friends did - and they disapproved?? What if it was a bad experience? What could this cost me? In the end I reminded myself that I was safe and this was a safe experience with Zealous Stills that I owed it to myself to allow and have, and that no one ever had to see the pictures besides myself and Molly if I didn’t want them to. That the benefit could be more than the cost. That I should just try it and see. That I deserve to be allowed to explore this side of my womanhood and femininity more deeply and see what could come of it.  That I wanted to

Transparently, I thought I would feel more unexpected emotions. I thought, in some aspects, there would be this tremendous sexual awakening where I would feel some hidden power I did not know was there. That might sound a little dramatic, but I sometimes feel pretty suppressed, so I was expecting a lot from myself. But I can't stress enough how important it is to me that everything felt normal. That, in its own right, meant a lot to me. I was comfortable. And because of that, I felt like I could just be myself.

I want to climb it, float it, see it, fly to it, hike to it, drive to it, and when I’m there, I’m gonna make a piece of art to remember it.

Some people like souvenirs, I like creating art.

My creating art in nature and passion for boudoir photography got married went exclusive as a full time pair! Studio boudoir is beautiful, I spent many years dedicated to it but like I said earlier, I’ve been on a path of authenticity and this is my most authentic form of creating art for the intentional souls to find me.

Adventure boudoir At Zealous Stills is an experience of a lifetime.

Boudoir has reflected the parts of me I avoid back to me so beautifully that I have fallen in love with them. But not every image comes out that way. During reveals, I find myself anxiously awaiting both the intense, empowering love and awe I know I will feel looking at my favorite images alongside the struggle and discontent I know I will feel at some of the other images. And then I use them as an opportunity to tune back into that place inside of me and try to dig away at it a little more.

She desires to BE FREE, to be in union with her surroundings. To feel the moss against the soles of her feet, the cold hard rocks on her bottom and the warm salty water on her bare breasts. She wants to BE HELD, held by something fierce yet soft, held by something that has no opinion of her perfect imperfections, something that will let her JUST BE. Her imagination ignites and daydreams rush into her mind as she watches the clouds go by, this must be what TRUE LOVE feels like. Love of self, free from the chains of another’s observations.

Through 2020 and 2021 I had some not great medical things happen, and some scary as hell “maybes” one of which was that heart crushing “C word”. Even with that being ruled out my body and mind were going through so much back-to-back trauma my brain could not compute that I was going to be ok!

Then, I lost what I felt was ALL of my femininity and had a hysterectomy in 2021, my body was failing me, and my mental health was following right behind it.

I knew I needed to process this all in a new way. So I dug deep, and for me that means secluding myself and writing it all out, burning or shredding the things that do not fit or are doing me an injustice. It is hard work, draining work, but it was work I needed to save my life.

Boudoir is everything the Divine Feminine Energy is and everything the Sacral needs to feel balanced. (No, it’s not going to magically cure you) BUT, somatic experiencing is a therapeutic haven for physical and mental/emotional change.